Big Little Lies – Monologue (Bonnie)

A monologue from the tv series created by David E. Kelley

S2 – E7

BONNIE

Can you see me? How you doing? Well it looks like it’s time. I have to confess something that I’m not so proud of.

And as I was writing I realized I needed to confess to you first. So here it goes. 

I resent you for the childhood I had. I resent you for your impatience. For being scared of doing their homework without being yelled at.

For all the kitchen cabinet doors you slammed. For slapping me. For all the bruises. I resent you for not feeling safe at home.

I resent you for being ashamed of me. I resent you for all the sex I started to have when I was thirteen to prove to myself that I could be loved.

I resent you for my wanting to beat the sh*t out of everyone. I resent you for making me feel so f***ing worthless that I settled for a man that I don’t…

But mainly I resent you for killing a man. I killed Celeste’s husband and he didn’t slip. I pushed him.

I snapped and when I lunged at him, I was pushing you. And that push was a long time coming. And I wanna forgive you. 

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